i heard this song at work this morning and it just rocked my socks. it pretty much runs through of all of the emotions i'm feeling spiritually right now, including what i am currently crying out in prayer each day.
i can't believe that in 3 short months, I will be gone and everything will be changed... as i rode home with Kevin yesterday from a church gathering, I realized that I will truly miss him and my family here... i'll miss those peaceful moments in his car, I'll miss the pure joy that came from playing badminton with youth, i'll miss the great conversations of people that have grown to love and accept me as their sister... i'll miss them sooo much. how can i srsly just walk away from that? Only God could lead me to do something so crazy...



You don't want my perfection,
All you ask of me is that I show up broken at your feet.
You don't want my religion,
You are looking for devotion that is more than just routine.

So show me what it means...
To take up my cross and count it all as loss,
All for the sake of knowing you.
To love my enemies and care for those in need.
Show me what it means to follow you.

Have I become like the Pharisee,
Passing by the needy while I'm speaking Jesus on my lips.
Will I walk with you on raging seas,
Will I turn away when you want more than what I want to give.

So show me what it means...
...What it means...
To take up my cross and count it all as loss,
All for the sake of knowing you.
To love my enemies and care for those in need.
Show me what it means to follow you.

To love as you love,
And live as you lived,
To never give up on giving you my life.

To love as you love,
And live as you lived.
To find out what it means to be alive.
To be alive!

To take up my cross and count it all as loss,
All for the sake of knowing you.

To love my enemies and care for those in need,
Show me what it means to follow you.

I will follow you, I will follow you.



Meredith Andrews - "Show Me What it Means"