Thankfulness

As I sit here writing "organization code: 139338" over and over and over again onto brochures for a fundraising option for CHAOS, it gives me a moment to reflect.

Something crossed my mind that has been on and off for the last few days: God's Timing.

I've been so frustrated with God's "perfect" timing lately.  It sure doesn't always feel perfect.  (if you read the follow and sound sarcastic on the italicized parts, you'll get it as I want it to sound...)

As I complete school, I look around at my classmates, who are all young and able to devote more of their life to their studies and think "yeah, God - perfect timing... why couldn't I have just stayed in school?" 
As I look at my family and see marriages and children, I think to myself "yeah, God - perfect timing.  In a few years, if I get pregnant, I'll be in the geriatric ward."
As I spend time in my home, which is a rented portion of a home owned by a single woman around my age, I think to myself, "Yeah, God - perfect timing.  I feel as though I'm a failed 30 year old woman."
As I think about the future with Eric and the possibility of our lives going down different paths, I think to myself "Yeah, God - thanks.  That's perfect timing."

Then I put down my pen and I paused...



It is perfect.

If I'd competed school years ago, I wouldn't have gotten my minor in Latin American Studies.  I often say that I wish I could major in LAS because that's truly where my heart is.
If I'd gotten married and started a family years ago, I wouldn't be going on any of the countless adventures I've gone on in the last few years.
If I'd bought a home and settled down, I wouldn't be free to serve God as He has called me to serve.
If I think about Eric, I think that at any other point in our lives, we wouldn't have met.

God's perfect timing has been the reason that I've made the friends I have.
God's perfect timing has been the reason that I'm able to be with my family - that I've been able to watch my nephew grow up - that I've been able to be around.
God's perfect timing has been the reason I am sitting at this very desk at this very moment doing something that seems so menial right now... but that it means we might be able to give more students an opportunity to experience God's love for them outside these four walls - in a retreat or mission experience setting.



And that's enough for me.

Horoscope

"All you need now is a Vision. Forget the tedious details, it's about following your hunches, listening to your instincts and finding a quiet moment in every day this week so that you can hear the still voice within. Inspiration is yours for the taking...either that or you'll be too dreamy or escapist to want to bother at all. Dreams become prophetic (if you can remember them). You want to leap without looking, take risks without forethought and pursue anything that gives you an emotional high. Artistic Aries will love this period, business types may not because nothing is solid, zero is certain and everything is just a possibility in a vast field of potential. The only limits are the ones you believe in."

As I have admitted before, I read my horoscope from one website every week.  I don't believe the stars hold my future, but I do enjoy the fact that sometimes it is simply inspirational.

Take this week's horoscope as posted above.  It's exactly what's going on in my life right now.  So, if you've read that, you know that something big is about to happen.

I have a vision.  The details are unimportant at the moment, but the end destination has always been semi-clear.  I'm leaping without looking and taking risks - and I have the reassurance that God will be with me, but not the reassurance that I will remain comfortable.  Nothing is certain and there is so much potential ahead of me.

I'm excited.  Are you?